Talking To The Moon

 “I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.” ~Kate Winslet – The Holiday

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I woke up this morning feeling… alone, faded, non-exsistant. I’m feeling the need to drink more (which I never do). Just not to feel this pain anymore.. I know it’s been almost 5 months.. but it feels as though this all happened a week ago. I’m trying to move on but when I try you’re always right there to remind me of the times we had and I feel weak again.

I don’t want to hurt anyone like I’ve been hurt.

I still feel like a fool, cause I’m still in love with you and I don’t think it will ever go away..

Sometimes I think you are the one I’m suppose to be with. You’ve said your “I Do” to her, you two have your childhood… A History.

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April 14-15, 2014 Lunar Eclipse

I know you’re somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

You’re all I had

At night when the stars light up my room

I sit by myself talking to the moon.

Trying to get to you

In hopes you’re on the other side talking to me too.

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

Do you ever hear me calling?

‘Cause every night I’m talking to the moon

     Still trying to get to you

In hopes you’re on the other side talking to me too

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

I know you’re somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

~Bruno Mars

Talking to the Moon